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bye bye 2008

2008-- the year unforgettable.
It is one more year, another 366 days!!!
it all started with a mail saying I have violated a company policy and made a criminal out of me. I took it very easily joking with my friends about it. That was a perfect indication of what was about to follow. Starting with the month-end of Jan, a lot happened all through the year. In Feb I went to Ashram in Chennai from where i had some unbelievable conversation with my mother. Later on things were looking settled slowly but steadily. In the same month my sister got married and all of my family were on cloud 9!! Then by the end of March things seem to have settled and my sister had left to USA. The month of march and April witnessed me working solely on a project and it was my first success in the professional career. On the personal front, these months were much better than Jan and Feb as there are no sensations. In the month of May, I started the similarity project which is a global project and which i didnt ta…

Human Relations-2

almost 20months ago, in Feb 2007 i have written an article by name 'human relations' which consists of a story from chandamama. purposefully i didnt make any conclusion in that and left it to the readers. At that time I have seen incidents around me which just shattered me and those made me to think abt issues like personal relations, human relations etc. Before I realise time passed very fast and here I am thinking about same issues once again. The reason this time is the recent police shootout of three youngsters and mixed response which it got from the society.
what went wrong?? this is the million dollar question which everyone wants to find an answer. there are differences between that girl and that guy and it reuslted in a breakup which he could not bear so attacked her with acid, then police shot those three guys. Now, the whole story has to be seen in two compartments, one till pouring acid and the other is shooting of those guys.

In the first episode, I cant say whethe…


Hai liye hathiyaar dushman taak mein baitha udhar
Aur hum taiyyaar hain seena liye apna idhar
Khoon se khelenge holi gar vatan muskhil mein hai
Sarfaroshi ki tamanna ab hamaare dil mein haiHaath jin mein ho junoon katt te nahi talvaar se
Sar jo uth jaate hain voh jhukte nahi lalkaar se
Aur bhadkega jo shola-sa humaare dil mein hai
Sarfaroshi ki tamanna ab hamaare dil mein haiHum to ghar se nikle hi the baandhkar sar pe kafan
Jaan hatheli par liye lo barh chale hain ye qadam
Zindagi to apni mehmaan maut ki mehfil mein hai
Sarfaroshi ki tamanna ab hamaare dil mein haiYuun khadaa maqtal mein qaatil kah rahaa hai baar baar
Kya tamannaa-e-shahaadat bhi kisee ke dil mein hai
Dil mein tuufaanon ki toli aur nason mein inqilaab
Hosh dushman ke udaa denge humein roko na aaj
Duur reh paaye jo humse dam kahaan manzil mein haiWo jism bhi kya jism hai jismein na ho khoon-e-junoon
Toofaanon se kya lade jo kashti-e-saahil mein haiChup khade hain aaj saare bhai mere khaamosh hain
Na karo to kuchh kaho mazhab mera mu…

Mumbai meri jaan!

my deep condolences to all my brothers who became the victims of this inhuman act.


here are some of the quotes which i read at least once every two days and keep myself boosted. The contributors for these are my sister from HP and my annayya (Vivek Dangeti) of my own team.
Whether it is the best of times or the worst of times, it is only time we haveAbility is what you're capable of doing
Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you do it.

Ingenuity, plus courage, plus work , equals miracles.Life is an echo; all comes back,
The good, the bad, the false, and the true.
So, give the world the best u have &The best will come back to u.The height of your accomplishments will equal the depth of your convictionsThe most glorious moments in your life are not the so-called days of success, but rather those days when out of dejection and despair you feel rise in you a challenge to life, and the promise of future accomplishmentsBe kind and merciful. Let no one ever come to you without coming away better and happier
last but not the least:
Our attitude to…

story: an eye opener!!!

off late i'm repeatedly facing a question: "how on the earth I deserve this?" there are some things which I strongly believe I dont deserve and I still stand at the receiving end. well, in a series of questions like 'how can any one be so inhuman?' 'isnt there something called courtesy in this world?' I asked my mentor this question "how on the earth I deserve this?" what mistake did I commit? By virtue I accept any criticism on a positive note. there is nothing called a "bad choice of words". coming to the present issue, Sir told me the story of a saint living in Benaras. one day he went to bath in Ganga and observed a scorpion floating on the water and trying to save its life. he then tries to hold it and put out of water. As soon as he touches it, it bites him bitterly. once it bites he leaves it on to the water. after a few moments he again tries to throw the insect out of water but it bites him again. This series happens for quit…

Adieu Dada!

it was yesterday another stalwart of Indian cricket called it a day. the Prince of Kolkata has quit the office. you cant listen the Royal Bengal tiger roar anymore. you cant find those off drives which reminds of classics like the "Sound of Music". Time, the biggest rival of a sportsman has succumbed Sourav. Men rise, men fall only names remains forever. Sourav Ganguly will be long remembered not only for his cricketing skills but also for many other things. Many captains make their teams win by lifting the team up with their performances and strategies on the field. But only few, make the team capable of winning even though they are out of the team. It is just by building a winning team. That is what precisely done by all the great captains. It is Steve Waugh who built a winning team for the Aussies, so despite his departure the team is still winning. It is Imran Khan for Pakistan who created a bunch of next gen. winners in Pakistan cricket, It is AB for Oz who made them b…

Jumbo! we miss you

Today the 2nd of Nov, 2008 an unsung hero of Indian cricket has called it a day. he made a right decision by doing so and prevented more criticism, more doubts on his dedication and more stupid questions from media. He entered into Indian cricket team as a young lad with solid spects capable of bowling some sort of leg spin (which many calls as another type of medium pace). he never had a typical leg spinner's bowling action neither his balls turned as expected by a leg spinner, still he is capable of getting wickets. His arsenal is equipped with a ferocious flipper always bang on target and backing it he had his will to dominate, his commitment to the team's victory. when compared with the greats of his era, he is second to none. He is not a lecherous maniac as Shane Warne, neither his bowling action is under scrutiny like Murali. He is not a crowd puller like Sachin, nor a flamboyant leader like Saurabh but still he demands the respect of his team just by his sheer commitmen…

Ethics:where are you??

last Saturday I went through an article in Eenadu paper which is hereI was simply shocked to read it. off late i'm getting used to all sorts of shocks possible in the planet but never dreamt people would go on to such a level. That lady in the end expresses her helplessness by saying "i dont know whom to blame". i think its not about blaming someone. its all about believing someone. these kind of experiences enrich us by making us realize even these kind of people are there in this world. but I should accept the fact these kind of things creates distrust among the victims. I'm damn confident that the lady would nevr share her agony with anyone again and by doing that she would not give the luxury of being her close friend to anyone again. but my feeling is that we should continue believing people despite these kind of shocks. Because doubting someone is an insult to the relation. its very easy to be said than done. I had a similar discussion with my friend and he wa…


You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
Youre frozen
When your hearts not open

Youre so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
Youre broken
When your hearts not open

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, wed never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

Now theres no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken

Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
Youre frozen
When your hearts not open

If I could melt your heart

lessons, exams and answers

yesterday I went across the following quote:

"In studies you learn lessons first and then get exams
In life you get exams first and then learn lessons"

this made me think a lot about the exams which life throws at you and the way people want us to learn lessons. If something out of hands happen, we should understand that there is a lesson to be learnt for you and here is the reminder. But if someone who knew you well play with you as long as they can and then say " I know you would be hurt but thats the way it is and you should learn a lesson from this". I'm sorry!!! I am out of words to explain what I would be going through then. In that case what is the so called lesson to be learnt??? the only answer I found is to forgive them, for God's sake not cursing them.

Now, the answers part for the exams which life throws at us. The only answer available is to stick to your principles. By principles I clearly mean things like Honesty, Trustworthiness etc. when I …

some insights..

Our President (Ex) of India DR. A. P. J. Abdul Kalam's Speech in Hyderabad

Why is the media here in India so negative? Why are we in India so embarrassed to recognize our own strengths, our achievements? We are such a great nation. We have so many amazing success stories but we refuse to acknowledge them. Why?

* We are the first in milk production.
* We are number one in Remote sensing satellites.
* We are the second largest producer of wheat.
* We are the second largest producer of rice.

Look at Dr. Sudarshan, he has transformed the tribal village into a
self-sustaining, self-driving unit.

There are millions of such achievements but our media is only obsessed in the bad news and failures and disasters. I was in Tel Aviv once and I was reading the Israeli newspaper. It was the day after a lot of attacks and bombardments and deaths had taken place. The Hamas had struck. But the front page of the newspaper had the picture of a Jewish gentleman who in five years had transformed…

Words priceless

In this turbulent times of torching churches and abusing idols i'm remembering the words said by Swami more than a century ago. This is the reason why I claim Swami is the greatest gift God has given to this holy land. Here goes the speech:

Date: 9/11/1893
Place:Chicago, Illinois

Sisters and Brothers of America,

It fills my heart with joy unspeakable to rise in response to the warm and cordial welcome which you have given us. I thank you in the name of the most ancient order of monks in the world; I thank you in the name of the mother of religions, and I thank you in the name of millions and millions of Hindu people of all classes and sects.

My thanks, also, to some of the speakers on this platform who, referring to the delegates from the Orient, have told you that these men from far-off nations may well claim the honor of bearing to different lands the idea of toleration. I am proud to belong to a religion which has taught the world both tolerance and universal acceptance. We believ…

Pakistan for you!!!

Right from my childhood I never had a positive feeling about Pakistan. It may be because of my parents long term association with organizations like RSS. and my father making me a 'swayamsevak' so that I would learn some discipline in my life. And I got exactly what my dad expected. you know, i was always my mom's kid but some times consider my dad also :)

well now the point of this blog is the video I watched in youtube. its just shocking!! and word shocking will not be sufficient to describe this. and i dont know any better word. may be 'horrendous' or 'grotesque' might fit.
P.S.: if at all you are a feminist please please prevent yourself from watching this video. this is a sincere request. Coz i have not known any feminist valuing my words. so making this specific request. its very disturbing and i dont want anyone to get disturbed by my blog.
here is the link

How Long should this go?

Find the Odd man out of the following?
1.Haridwar 2. Kanpur 3.Agra 4. Benaras
Many people know the answer of the above question. Lets go to another question:
Find the Odd man out of the following?
1. Mumbai 2. Hyderabad 3. Ahmadabad 4. Delhi
I'm sure its quite difficult to answer this question, because there is no odd man in this! all four places have everything in common. May it be being Indian cities, or having huge population, or having centers of development off late or places filled with people who lost their loved ones by the massacre done by some beasts on the name of the religion. This is the plight of my nation! People go on bombing as if they are very much used to it. The so called policy makers condemn the acts, the opposition claims its the fault of the govt., govt. says its all because of 'Gujarath' (i dont know how poor Gujarathis can be made responsible for this!)
Yet another blast, yet another condemn from the people, yet another eventful day for the media, Manmo…

9/11 and after!!

'9/11' '9/11'
A term which has shown the world a new level of suffering,
A day which left the whole world with a feeling of insecurity,
An accomplished mission which defeated the humanity!
Its not the first time that humanity is defeated by a group of people or by s section. If people think that 9/11 is the result of some incidents happened in the past few decades they r seriously mistaken. Human beings tend to conveniently forget the root cause of the whole problem. And the real thing which is behind it is a ghastly episode in the history of human being. it is called the CRUSADES. It was a bloody era of human history. If at all I felt let down by reading some thing in the human history it is this. the first crusade started in 1095 A.D. and the maverick attitude of the two religions continued for another 350+ years!!! A war longing for 350 years!! yes it was. These wars left the a gap between the two religions which is yet to get bridged. Whatever ill feelings developed o…

Introspection, Change etc etc..

" you are not as good as you think you are" - this is the remark which i received in one of the interviews for the SELP. and also a suggestion to introspect. well this kind of interviews is not new for me and they always helped me. Of course now its time i redefine myself. I live my life according to certain principles. Right now i'm shattered but not my principles. They cant be shattered, come what may!
and one of the principles that guide me is to stand for people who BELONG to me. As long as i'm alive I stand for them. sometimes this might back fire because people cant take suggestions which they dont like. but i will try my best to make them understand my point. sometimes this feature of me might cost me even the very relation for which i'm worried so much. but its fine. Coz that gives me the satisfaction of doing my duty. i think its my dharma being a well wisher of some one to tell that 'you are running into risk' and its perfectly fine if …


this is again something which i want to write for a long long time. now i'm very much emotionally charged up with all possible set backs and i could see myself in a place where i'm left with nothing to lose. well, let me not become too personal and write start about religion.
there is a great word in Sanskrit called "Dharma" which mentions the duties a person has to perform in his life time. English language do not have an equivalent for that and it was replaced by "RELIGION". so the misconceptions started right from the outset. Religion mean a way or a set of rules which people has to follow for the peaceful functioning of the society. Why is this needed? cant we live without it? yes! you can live without it, but if you are to be called a human you need some rules to monitor yourself and thats what exactly religion is!!
A couple of days some one on the net was making an appeal that human being has to come beyond religions claiming that religions are the caus…

Indian Muslims or Indians or Muslims???

this is something which i was thinking to blog for a long long time. At the end of this update ppl might resort to report abuse my blog. i dont mind it as long as i stand for what i believe through my heart and soul. A couple of days back Shabana Azmi remarked that she could not buy a house in Mumbai for the reason that she is a muslim. Similarly Mohd.Azharudin claimed that he is facing the match fixing offense for the reason that he is a minority. These are a couple of statements which are showing the moral bankruptcy among the people. Did Azharuddin forgot that he is a muslim when he is made the captain of Indian cricket team? Is Shabana Azmi under any spell when she is awarded the best actress award many times? why didnt she cry foul at that time saying its because of her religion. Show me one country in the planet where the so called minorities are giving the same value and treatment we are giving them. people might point out the issues like Babri Masjid and 2002 Gujarat riots but…

A Tribute

the letter i posted above was written by Capt. Vijay Thapar before going for his last battle in tololing. he was 22 when he wrote that. without my knowledge i have tears in my eyes when i read this. and i want to keep here few thoughts of mine for him:my sweetest brother,
you are eternal. if at all i get another life i would be proud to be born as a sand particle in the way you walk. your care towards Ruksana states how magnanimous your heart is. may the little kid is blessed with His grace. its eight years since you left us. but this country and its citizens are always indebted to you. your last words "LIVE LIFE KING SIZE" made me realise how a king would look like. my brother, you are the king. a king is not made by birth but by deeds. on this holy day i take pledge that for the rest of my life i will take part in activities for the welfare of my country with my heart and soul. i will keep my best efforts to ensure your sacrifice has not gone waste.May the almighty keep…

UPA won, India lost!!

Abraham Lincoln's Democracy:
for the people
by the people
of the people

Definition in world's largest Democratic country:
far the people
buy the people
off the people

this is India for you. anything can happen in India and anything can happen only in ndia. y'day the 22nd of july 2008 stands as the darkest day of indian democratic history. almost an year ago i had a discussion with Prof. Zeleny who opined that democracy is not suitable in India and he also claimed that it is because of democracy India is not developing as fast as china. my only answer for his claim is 'if you ask me to take one among freedom of speech and development, i would not hesitate a moment to opt for the former' given the diversity of India anything other than democracy would be a disaster. we are different from each other in terms of the God we worship, the color we have, our food habits, languages, cultures, traditions and what not! we r different to each other all across the aisles and channels …

Murder on the Orient Express

i guess its time i come out of all the things happening around me and be back to "MY LIFE" and i was thinking what should i write about next? while browsing through the folder of my PC i found the pdf named "Murder on Orient Express"and here i'm writing about it. i read the book a long ago but still fell excited whenever i see that pdf.
since childhood i'm very fond of detective stories and made my debut with the one and only 'The Hound of Baskervilles' after that i read a lot of similar books starring dearest Sherlock Holmes, cunning Hercule Poirot, shrewd Perry Mason and Miss Maple. To be frank i'm an ardent supporter of Sherlock for his intellectual skill set and the way he executed his plans. Even then i never wrote about any of them, not even about "Valley of Fear". but today i'm writing about "Murder on the Orient Express". the novel does not consists of any scientific method of reasoning or any other method of ded…


Look at my face in the mirror
And I wonder what I see
I’m just a traveling soldier
And I’ll be all I can be

But right now!!! I just wanna be free
I wanna be all I can be.
Don’t you say I’m a failure
You don’t know who I can be
If they wanna know who I am
They just have to wait and see

But right now!!! I just wanna be free
I wanna be all I can be
Look at my face in the mirror
And I wonder what I see
I’m just a traveling soldier
And I’ll be all I can be

But right now!!! I just wanna be free
I wanna be all I can be. ’ ..hei hei
I wanna be all I can be!!! Hhuo!

I’m just a traveling soldier
And I’ll be all I can be!
But right now,I just wanna be free
I wanna be all I can be.’

I’m just a traveling soldier
And I’ll be all I can be!
But right now,I just wanna be free
I wanna be all I can be’ ..
Hei hei I wanna be all I can be .!!!

Trust: an Expectation?

there are many questions in my mind right now, for which i wish to have answers. Among all of those the very basic is the clarity between 'trusting a person' and 'expecting something from a person'. i'm completely responsible for all the happenings in my life and i deserve all of them: good or bad. what i am confused right now is believing some one an expectation? is the thought that someone is ethically strong as the way you are is an expectation? i dont really have an answer. my boss was saying y'day ' the whole world is selfish only the scale of selfishness varies from person to person'. had it been sometime earlier i would have differed him but now i'm very much convinced that its true. I feel fortunate that God gives me opportunity to think about these kind of things by giving perfectly suited situations. its completely fine with me. i can manage the joy which comes in the due course and i can bear the pain if at all any. given any situation I …

Best Friend's week

As this week is called as the Best Friends' week i thought this would suit to be in my blog. some how i like this card very much. i dont remember who sent it to me but I sent to people who are very special to me. The same goes true with the story below as well.

A story tells that two friends were walking
through the desert. During some
point of the journey they had an argument, and
one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt,
but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:


They kept on walking until they found an oasis,
where they decided to take a bath. The one who
had been slapped got stuck in the mire and
started drowning, but the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near
drowning, he wrote on a stone:


The friend who had slapped and
saved his best friend asked him,
"After I hurt you, you wrote in the
sand and now, you write on a stone,
why?" The other friend repl…

St. John's Koramangala...

it has been a long time since i updated my blog. one reason is the lack of motivation and the other reason is to respect some of my friends' personal feelings. i've not posted this blog yesterday because of only one reason that is this is not written by then :)

well, last thursday after the landmark seminar, i along with my team started backhome (my team consists of my sister and another friend thats all!!) b/n the koramangala police station and the ward #67 bus stop jus before the bata show room we observed a mob and a bike lying on the floor. we stopped and to have look at scene. we saw the people who got injured and from the mob learnt that two men on the bike had hit a car. i asked one man who is on the floor to go to the police station and then to hospital. he refused it saying he wants to go home. and i could not reach the second man properly as he hasnt gave me any answer. so we thought its alright and moved to our car. we had already observed that the car which was i…