Monday, January 26, 2015

2014...

Jai Guru Deva,

2014 had witnessed me getting promoted to a manager and on personal side I had become a father. My son Sathvik was born on 26th Oct 2014. This is the biggest event for 2014.

the year started with my promotion getting confirmed and the scope of my work had increased with time. I started taking newer responsibilities and as expected my work load also increased :) This did not bother me much as I was prepared for it but it does bother my wife a lot as I got averse to going out on weekends. On the other side, we had witnessed few escalations in the forecasting that I am managing and I started building a base for better managing the forecast activities.

Come March-April I had travelled to Vancouver and that was a memorable trip. I could not forget the view of Mt.Hood when I came out of my hotel room and see out side.. that was a manifestation of purity of mother nature and one of the greatest sources of joy for me in that whole tour. On  a professional note the tour was not a good one as we didnt had proper conversations during that trip. However, it was financially beneficial thing for me as I got a decent amount of money for that trip.

Once I am back from my trip we realized that our lives are heading towards a much greater change as we got a confirmation that my wife is carrying. Me and my wife were very excited about that and more concerned about how we are going to manage the delivery. This is particularly critical because my wife is apprehensive about the facilities in her native place and I am not willing to have it in Bangalore as I am doubtful of my capability to manage any crisis scenario. Also, I was not hopeful that my in laws would come and support in any emergency scenario.

From April to end of year I had worked on the most tiring project of my career. I clearly knew that I am asked to hit a moving target and make it worse, the target keep changing every other week :( I should accept that this is one of the most frustrating period of my career. Even when my son was born on 26th Oct I could not take my paternity leave because of the commitments from office. However, because of the flexibility of HP I was able to work from home and manage things during that time. 

Second half of the year was more tiring than the first half. With me shifting the house second time in six months I was exhausted to the core physically and emotionally. This is not the first time that I did so much of work but somehow i felt very tired. As of now, in any typical weekend I have no inclination to do any work. I am bringing vegetables and groceries also on one of the week days. Another thing that I am worried is the insomnia. I am not able to catch sleep till late in the night and also not able to get up early. Sometimes I am getting awake because of some bad dream or some other such thing and then not able to catch sleep again. Some times I wonder where my life is leading upto and I am little concerned about this. However, I have the confidence that once I revert back to basics and start my spiritual practices, I can definitely bounce back. If my life has taught me anything it is that dedicated effort will not fail under any circumstances. 

On the other side, I had attempted UPSC civils exams in August but miserably failed to clear the test. I had been to Coimbattore to write the exam and stayed at my cousin's house. Its probably after a decade or so that I had met my cousin's family. I felt good about that. Then I had shifted to a new house which is quite small when I compare to my own house in e-city. But the thing I liked about this house is, my house owners are very good people and they feed cows every day. Yes, everyday means everyday around 10AM atleast 5-6 cows comes to our house and my house owner's family feeds them. My belief is, life around such people will be definitely satvik. May be thats why my wife's delivered went without any glitch. Everything got arranged like some plan but we never planned it.

On a financial front, this year has been "OK". I had a good pay rise at the starting of the year and then the promotion adjustment nonetheless my expenses also increased similarly. Cloudnine had their prices and cloud nine and we were left grounded :) Also, changing house two times is really very expensive. we had spoiled somethings, we lost some. so all in all, a financially challenging year. However, for the first time in 3years I had payed back some of my home loan principal.

Last not least, I request everybody to bless my little son. I had named him as Sathvik!!

Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Thank you M.A. Jinnah ;-)

Jai Guru Deva,

My politically ideology is definitely against two nation theory but after seeing this video I cant help but feel glad that Pakistan is a separate country. Cant believe such behaviour from elderly gentlemen and particularly from those who are well educated.

Here goes the video


Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Monday, January 19, 2015

Thy name SATHVIK

Jai Guru Deva,

Today I want announce that we have named our son as SATHVIK. He is born on 26th Oct 2014 and will complete three months this weekend. His complete name would be "INDRAKANTI VEERABHADRA SATHVIK". I have added our family God's name as I want him to be covered with divine grace that was protecting our family for several centuries. We have selected Sathvik as the name because me and my wife have thought that its good name before our marriage. Also when we were doing the chanting for Lord Siva, one of the names was Sathvik and it is then right infront of the havan I have decided that his name will be Sathvik.

When he was born I thanked the Almighty for blessing us with him and let the grace be flown on him. I have not thought that he will become so and so or he will do so and so. All I prayed the almighty is to let him become a responsible human and make a positive contribution to the society he is part of.

Request everybody to bless the little one!

Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Thursday, January 15, 2015

15th Jan 2005!!!

Jai Guru Deva,

On this very day ten years ago, me and my friend Ravi won the prize in paper presentation competition in Vignan Tech Fest, Guntur. This was my first prize in paper presentations. Though I got several prizes for quiz etc in 2004 getting prize in paper presentation was always special. I had a sound sleep that night. Yes, between 2000 and 2005 there were very less days when I had a lengthy sleep. Every minute I lived, every breathe I took, I craved for success. particularly from 2003, nothing seemed important to me than my self development. Perhaps for this reason I got several prizes and awards during this time. However, icing on the cake was my GATE rank. will write later about it.

Coming to our Vignan adventure, it was a typical Karthik-Ravi comic episode. Serious preparation, amazing concept, spectacular missing of some simple but important thing and finally pulling it off with sheer grit and stubborn attitude. The concept of our paper was Computer Integrated Manufacturing Systems(CIMS). This paper is a brain child of my God brother Ashok and then Ravi added some more sections to it. After making our additions it was a paper containing 20 pages and nobody would accept it in these tech fests. There started struggle, we met Subba Rao sir, Raju sir to cut short the paper but their suggestions were not liked by me. Didnt I mention stubborness somehwere above ;-) and finally it was my project guide Mohan Reddy sir whose inputs we took and replaced several paragraphs of content with tables and charts so as to reduce the size of the paper.

As a matter of fact Ravi wanted to send a paper on Hygrogen cell for this competition but I resisted. Because that paper was definitely worth a prize and I want to send it to RGIT Nandyal. For two reasons visiting RGIT is something I was desperately looking for that year. One is reason is that the prize amount in RGIT is way higher than other colleges. In fact I applied for passport using the money I had earned in RGIT and thats why my passport is always a sweet possession for me. Second reason is that I will get a chance to meet one of my childhood friend. Perhaps, that was my only chance to meet my friend and I gave my best to make that happen. There is no place of ifs and buts in life but if I hadnt been to RGIT my life would definitely have some void. A human being is too great to miss, after all.

Once the paper is ready we had sent it to Vignan and it got selected. I was happy for this but not much hopeful for winning a prize. All I was determined was to give my best. we had reached Guntur in the early hours of the day and suddenly I had a bad flu and what I am speaking was hardly audible to others. The competition starts at 9AM and here I am at 6AM with a muted voice. Though I have complete confidence that Ravi can manage the presentation without me but I always wanted to give my contribution and pitch in to support him. So I started eating Vicks candies hoping that my voice will get better.. how stupid of me, but I keep doing that with a fool's hope to get better. Then another strange thing is that the organizing team had allocated us a couple beds and they were right next to ladies toilet!!! Didnt I tell its a comic episode? :-)

And the fun didnt end there, around 11AM the organizing team asked everybody to give their presentations for loading them on to the system. When Ravi opened the CD cover there was no CD in that, it was an empty one!!! Only we can do such spectacularly idiotic things. However, we had another copy in a floppy and we were doubtful whether that would work. It is destiny that the lousy floppy worked and it is divine grace that we had won a prize hands down. Ravi, as usual was unstoppable and I ventured as and when there were queries. I dont remember the names of the judges but they asked a lot of queries about expert systems and I answered them very well. Incidentally two years later, my M.Tech thesis was also to prepare an expert system and building a knowledge base. Strange life!!!


Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Forgive us!

Jai Guru Deva

My deepest condolences to the affected families in possibly the worst attack on humanity. People witnessed 9/11 and moved on, People suffered 26/11 and moved on; But this is something very very difficult to move on. For a long long time to come this will remain as the haunting memory to the collective conscience of humanity. I cant help but beg for the forgiveness of the children who had to face such a wrath of fate for no fault of theirs.

Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Thursday, December 04, 2014

Learnings from Mahabharath - 6 : Ethics & Morals

Jai Guru Deva,

I am completely cognizant of the fact that we are living in an era where ethics and morals are just mere literature and they dont have any significance in the practical world. Nonetheless, I keep harping about them because I value any person only based on their ethical base. I dont care anything else. Real character is not about money or hard work or intelligence its the commitment to ethics in trying situations, its the capacity of self restraint in vulnerable situations. I know day by day all these things becoming meager in the society and I have my own experience someone blamed me that I have expectations in the name of trust. I spectacularly failed to understand that logic. 



Coming back to Mahabharath, there are several instances where different characters stood for highest level of ethical behavior which stands as an inspiration for me. In this post I am trying to recall as many of such cases as I remember:

1. Grandsire Bhishma: nobody more than Grandsire deserves a first mention when there is a discussion about ethics. All his life he had faced so much of trouble only because he was binding to the highest level of ethics. Finally his death is also a result of what he had believed in and he chose death instead of being unethical. Grandsire! you are inspirational!

2. Karna: Next I want to mention about Karna because for no fault of his he got punished. Being the rightful owner of throne of Hastinapur he never craved for it. He had always maintained that he is indebted to Duryodhan and he will stand by Durodhan irrespective of what he had done. Ofcourse though his commitment to Duryodhan is not a correct trait of a friend but the way kept himself away from the throne of Hastinapur is something worth  a praise.

3. Kunti: Generally I hear a lot of criticism about Kunti regarding the issue of Karna but i will not comment as its against my principles to talk about woman. However, when the Pandavas are in Ekachakra nagari and their Brahmin host thinks about sacrificing one of their family members for Bakasura Kunti offers to send one of her son to Bakasur and chooses Bhim for that task. When Yudhishtir asks her why she had not selected him for going to Bakasura Kunti replies that Yudhisthir is the crown prince of Hastinapur and Hastinapur has more right over Yudhishtir. That shows how much she is committed to her role as the queen of Hastinapur.

4. Yudhishtir: He is a man who stood for very high level of ethics. Despite being the eldest brother of perhaps the greatest warrior of this country in the last 5000 years he did not crave for war. He told Krishna that he will be happy if Duryodhan gives him five villages. What else do we need to talk about this man! His warrior brothers would have won all of planet earth and he had no necessity to ask the permission of Grandsire to start the war.

Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

My condolences..

Jai Guru Deva,

Today is the anniversary of the great tragedy of 26/11. My deep condolences of all those who are killed. On the fatal day, I had slept early and did not know till I saw The Hindu next morning. It was one of the most shocking moment of my life. In 2008 I was already half dead with several of my personal problems but this was beyond my imagination. I knew Islamic terrorism has done for several centuries. From Nalanda library to Bamiyan statues but 26/11 was something that I am witnessing and I am connected to. Atleast four people who I know have escaped the massacre very narrowly. My deepest condolences to all the people who lost their lives in such a ghastly attack.


Sarvejana Sukhinobhavantu,
-Karthik